ABOUT CRYING

Do you cry?  
Whether any readed book or watched movie, initiated with a decades hidden pain inside you? Whether tears of forgotten pain, which you succeeded to stop, moved down the? Whether you felt uncomfortable because of that, especially if you went on some public place?

If you experienced anything of those, don't worry, everything is OK with you. You're healthy human bean, whose is by successfully use of selfcontrolpower, just spaned a moment of weakness. Damage which you thereat experienced is minor so if you're lucky, nobody of your common friends didn't see that. Back to your face expression of invulnerability and power and courageously keep to go forward - wherever you ...

WARNING: If you consider yourself as an eminent representative of machoism, further content of this text in your case can provoke some spiritual disturbing, so we recommend you to don't read it.

Crying represent one of the ways with which human kind express emotions. Pain, fear, loss, disappointment, failure and many other emotions, own natural way of expressing experience by crying. It on the natural way cleans mostly of aggregated and remained negative emotions and represent  sure sign that your energetic system functioning so good and talk about that your are able and you care to feel wide spectrumof life energies. Crying is your friend.

Unfortunately in Egoland, which is based and which is functioning on Power, it represent confirmation of your weakness, cowardliness and infirmity. This is the first sight which warn you that something is wrong with you and which will among your friends launch a real avalanche of suppositions and theories. Against your will, you became active participant of own "Big Brother". You'll be controlled discretely, and your usually actions - explained again, will get completely new meaning.
But matter is so simple - you've just cried.

It is not some new need because since your's birth moment and during period of youth, you used it many times. When you still was a baby, it replaced to you a deficiency of speech and it must be conceded that it was successfully. With it, you expressed all your needs; that you are hungry, wet, scared, alone. Activating it, somebody always appeared - mostly your mother, to feed you, change your clothes, embrace you and to bind up on her chest.

When you began to walk and talk, you still kept to use it - when you was hit with your knee into the asphalt, to convince your parents to buy you a new and expensive toy, when you didn't need to go early to the bed and in many other occasions. But because of that, you was criticized frequently by your parents and surroundings. They told you that you are not a baby anymore, and that with crying you wont get something what you want.
It's a pity, it was just simple.

By starting with schooling in a company with a children similar to you, things become more seriously. So, they became your direct opponent in a struggle for the power and every sign, even the smallest, exposed you to defamation by the others. Inasmuch you cried, you would touch the bottom: you'll be announced by coward, crying baby, and who knows - maybe even a girl?

So, gradually, year by year , during adolescence period, you repeled inside you even the smallest hint of your eyes' wetting. At the same time, you repeled and renounced of huge number of emotions. You become a Rock, somebody who can't be made to show emotions by the influence of strongest pain and loss. Now, it became some kind of competition among you and expression of your Personal Power.
Just sometimes, in a moments of family tragedies, your company would tolerate your crying, but under condition that you don't overdo in that act. You must be strong.

By other, it is experienced in two ways: as undesirably - because it represents an expression of your pain, personal weaknesses and deficiency of selfcontrol power, and as desirably -  because it represents evidenly proof of your pain, personal weaknesses and deficiency of selfcontrol power.
Because of that, you concealed it forever. Deep inside you.

During time, not showing emotions and not releasing it through crying, all that pain, rage, anger, fear and who knows what else, you  accumulated inside you, what made a terrific internal pressure and pain inside you. Don't knowing for another way, you got free of that pain with brawls,   alcoholism, gambling, fightings, family maltreating, illness and thousand other ways. You used all wrong methods to avoid to do the correct one - crying.

Of many years intensive programming by the society was so strong and successfully that you was ready to destroy your and your family's life to not fall a crying.
You don't. You're not a girl.

Indeed, girls - women do it fewer. Since they included theirselves more actively in direct struggle for fight with a men, they also started to feel ashamed and to repel crying.
Result? More and more pain and misapprehension.

Why Ego insists at prohibition of crying?
Explanation is very simple. By imposition of that prohibition a huge accumulation of energy appears, energy which is used to afforce and enlarge own Personal Power. On that way Ego tranquillize a fear of disappear and death, because big energy influx allow constantly and high energetic potential, as a making of particular energetic reserves, just in case of need.

Therefore crying - inasmuch you've 20 years abstained of it, isn't completely innocently. It will help you to make you free of internal pain and pressure, it will allow you to establish internal peace and to experience Love energies more clearly, but because of that, you'll directly make an influence on your Personal Power weakness, and also a health in particular volume.
Because of that you have to define measure and level of repeled emotions, from which you want to get free by crying.

Its importance is  specifically important in education process of next generations of children. Inasmuch, during growth, they were encouraged to all negative emotions and pain in every occasion and with a support of surroundings express by crying, it would directly resulted by reduction of all kinds of violence, murders, even wars.
Maybe it looks so simple, but  you can try.

...where you directed yourself, but beforehand, however, read this text. Maybe you'll find inside a few sentences which can help you.