Mankind is generally aware only of Ego existence as a consciousness center, but sometimes just in dreams, feelings, meditation...,we intuit that consciousness of our Being isn't "damned" only on it, but it embrace several structures of consciousness (we don't mean on chakras) which are reciprocally differ about quality and the energy type which make them.
Except Temporarily Consciousness Structures (Ego, Personal Power, Actor…) there are also exist Permanently Consciousness Structures (Evolucionally Consciousness, Internal Child, Fairy…) and within the limits of this text, we 'll try, in course of time, to represent their basic characteristics.
TEMPORARILY CONSCIOUSNESS STRUCTURES
EGO
With birth, baby is in consciousness condition which is very close to that what we call Pure Consciousness.
Pure Consciousness represent consciousness condition without physical feelings, emotions and minds - it's a Consciousness in its elementary and originally condition, when it it wasn't "polluted" with contents of Ego.
However, due to sense sensations, new borned baby respond on environment so that reactions attract consciousness from Physical, Emotional and Thoughtful Body, making, in course of time, one special center of conscious-ness.
Permanently reactions which baby is exposed to, just and internal needs which baby feels, attracts bigger and bigger quantity of consciousness / energy into recently created center, and when baby - due to permanently influx of consciousness, reach particular "critical mass" and saturation, baby becomes aware of himself as a unique, separately and own possessing being.
The Ego has born.
However, because Ego is made of physical, emotional and thoughtful "patches", at the same time it is painfully aware of the fact that its structure is highly unstable and envious of permanently influx of consciousness / energy - new physical feelings, new emotions and new thoughts. Because of that, it permanently keeps those three bodies active and busy, so they can provide permanently making of energy which is necessarly for survival.
Let us notice that Ego in spatial sense isn't uniquely complex, but it is placed in different parts of Living, Emotional and Thoughtful Bodies, so the thing which makes that parts of consciousness as a complex is closely range of their vibrations.
Generally, we can talk about Living Ego, Emotional Ego and Thoughtful Ego.
Thoughtful Ego
Thoughtful Ego of every person represent temporarily structure which contains everything what it thinks that makes itself special and unique according to all other persons. That structure - such like that, is unstable and very sensitive and every time you dispute some person - its beliefs, sense of relevance, customs, habits... you, in fact, destroy his or her Thoughtful Ego, whereto he makes resistance - an it is reasonable.
Thoughtful Ego describes itself with beliefs
Belief represent thoughtful conclusion about nature, attributes and the way of some thing's, phenomenon's or person's activity and it can be based on personally experienced or just on supposed experience. Nevertheless it is experienced or supposed, it brings conclusion that for it has power of Truth, whereby the set of more truths makes his prospect of life according to which he makes decisions and actions.
Construction of Thoughtful Ego is neither easy and quick process and it is mostly completed about 25-th year of life, when person has already derived prospect of world.
Although temporarily necessary, Thoughtful Ego is many times transformed into its opposite, and by the time it becomes some kind of mental prison, which prevent that person in further progress and cognition of the world.
Voluntarily accepted or imposed beliefs by the family, society and culture in which that person has grown, many times make him blind or deaf for all those forms of thinking and existence, which don't fall under tight limits of his beliefs.
This is partly clearly, because acceptance of new belief require before all rejection of old, what is - in energetic sense painfully, because elimination of any part of Thoughtful Ego, makes harm to its structure and makes fear of disappearance and death.
Emotional Ego
Emotions represent the way Emotional Ego responds on other persons, life experiences and situations it exposed to.
Emotional Ego is sensitive and it its easy to hurt it, namely, awake it for the action
If somebody tells to your Thoughtful Ego that it is stupid, your Emotional Ego will automatic respond by anger and rage.
However,if Thoughtful Ego consider that circumstance or your social position doesn't allow its exhibition, or inasmuch is - by your Living Ego's evaluation, particular physical reaction - as a respond on insult, to risky, your Emotional Ego has to repel its reaction.
However, that repeled anger and rage he will still carry inside himself, and in most cases that mood will be "depleted" there where you're entirely secured - within your family.
Living Ego
Living Ego represent that part of Temporary Consciousness which relates on impuls group, associated for physical survival of the person. There belongs all his or her basic needs - need for food, asylum, security, extension of a kind.
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Although here are described - because of easier understanding, as three separate complexes, Thoughtful, Emotional and Living Ego always operate together. That unity many times represent source of many problems, because, for example, Emotional Ego its - emotional problems, "heal" with excessively activity of Living Ego - overindulge, alcoholism, excessively sexual activity...
From connection of mutually influence of those three Egos, rises and originates everything what we experience as a negative in our life: desire for power, greed, sadism, lie... and the only way of its overrun is renewed connection establishing with a Soul.
Don't be wrong - Thoughtful, Emotional and Living Ego aren't Thoughtful, Emotional and Living (Ethereal) Body, but parts of energy / consciousness which freely float by within those energetic bodies, in some kind of own limited self-consciousness.
"Proof" for this is Illumination, after what illuminated person doesn't have Ego any more, but still has and uses Thoughtful, Emotional and Living Body.
However, after illumination, those bodies serve just as instruments for communication with a world, instruments which are finally released of those consciousness rampage, which we, with proud call - Ego.
ACTOR
By growing Ego interpret very quickly that its requirements and needs are many times in conflict with requirements and needs of other people, which are often criticized, disregarded and rejected, and sometimes, Ego is punished because of that. To span a gap between its needs and regulations and limitations of society, Ego creates Actor.
Actor is temporary psychological structure, made according to requirements and regulations of the society inside Ego lives, with a goal to such adjusted and accepted, realize all those desires and needs which were abridged and prohibited earlier.
PSYCHOLOGICAL MECHANISM AND NEEDS OF EGO
It's already known to all of us that expression "egoism" characterize a person who is orientated only on his profit, thereat ignoring needs of other people. However, "real" egoists seems to be fewer and fewer, because egoism, by the time, became so sophistical and oblique, that many times it is impossible to detect and understand it.
We are all egoists, but the thing which makes difference among people is possessive consciousness about that and readiness to exceed egoism in particular volume.
Observing Ego we can note some basic needs which launch it on action:
Cohesion
This is something what happens to us every day spontaneously: we ties for some people, things, ideas, landscapes... and that connectivity doesn't originate just from pleasant experiences, unfortunately negative experiences makes stronger and more permanently cohesion, because the stronger is flow rate of energy, the connection is stronger and it is harder to break it.
Cohesion originates mainly from two reasons:
- our comprehension that thereabout exist something we want very much or what is necessarly, so we grab for it and
- cohesion which originates from interpersonal relations, either good and bad.
This is especially expressed at majority which are emigrated abroad, but they still feel connected for former fatherland, even the conditions for living are extremely hard there or they were exposed to maltreating.
Although they are psychical placed a thousands kilometers away from their old fatherland, energetic connections they established during growth and living in a fatherland - either good and bad, aren't broken but still exist, and thereby still comes to energy exchanges among them.
In that respect, a big part of their energy is still remained there, except cultural differences, seems to be one of the main reasons why they still feel nostalgy for a country they left, which prevent them to establish successfully energetic connections in new environment.
Affiliation
Ego simply must belong to someone or something.
This is very strong need, because it doesn't know neither who is it, what is it, what is its amount. The only way to acquire consciousness about itself and own value is indirectly way - by opinion of other persons about him. Everything it does in a life, Ego does because of other people - to leave an impression on them, to make itself to delight them, to be accepted, to get evaluation and confirmation of its value, just as a place belongs it to the pyramid of power.
Affiliation occupy high position on Ego's list of values and it is conclusively for that we call "moral applicability", regardless what moral in a reality really is, and if person clearly express his affiliation, he will take a high position in a group or society.
Necessary condition for this is possession of same tribal consciousness.
This is clearest to perceive in all those groups or societies in which power is realized exclusively by affiliation, but not moral, intellectual, emotional, actively and other attributes of the person. Affiliation is like some kind of informally secret brotherhood, where the basic philosophy is "We against Them".
Although "We" claim that they exist and that they work exclusively because of wellbeing of "Them", it is clear even to most naive observer that it is not a case.
The power of those who experience themselves as "We", lies in their common consciousness, which is directed by the Queen - just like it is the case at ants. Because of that, any change of activities and tasks - which can be over against recent, in their case doesn't lead to breakages and loss of the power, but they with a same resolution continue their activities in opposite direction,namely, now in the right way.
Survival at the top of the chain of nourishing, privileges and Power which they possess, makes their basic goals, which are successfully realized by - affiliation.
Tribal consciousness
To be accepted in Egoland, it is necessarily to harmonize your consciousness with tribal consciousness of the group you want to belong to.
"Tribal consciousness" represent ego consciousness of some group of people, whose understandings of the world are the same or very similar. Every different thinking and behaviour is experienced as unfriendly and traitorous according to the group and in that respect represent danger for the community, so it must be repressed and punished.
However, if the person is still persistent in his way of thinking and behaviour, then he is permanently relegated from the group.
Tribal consciousness equally working either in tribal communities in Africa and national, political, religious, technological, sport, musical and other tribal worldwide.
Living Philosophy of Ego
Regardless on differences in race, gender, nation, religion, education and the like, at every person we can perceive a group of living attitudes, common for all people, which we can named as "Living Philosophy of Ego ".
According to it, Ego is:
- it loves you so many, as much you give benefit
- it respect you so many, as much it afraids of you
- it consider you clever so many, as much you're more artful and shifty or mendacious than it
- it is happy so many, as much you're unhappy
PERMANENTLY STRUCTURES OF CONSCIOUSNESS
FAIRY
Fairy represent female part of your consciousness, which include all best attributes which female energy could have, and it is placed in time when girl is in a process of transformation but she didn't become a woman yet.
Unlike Inner Child who is sparkling, carelessly full of joy and freedom, Fairy contain inside a set of much quietly, but deeper emotions. Inside the Fairy, there is a particular note of melancholy, mild sadness because of growing from the childhood and allusion that in u future life will never always be mild to us. Fairy is entirely liberated of sexuality and all tensions that carries with, and if we search for any other name for Fairy, that would be - Big Sister.
Everything what Inner Child can't heal, because it is beyond of his energy set, the Fairy will heal.
Fairy's love is neither importunate or of strong intensity at the first glance, it is mild, but it reach deeply into your being and make clean even the earliest and most painfull traumas. Therefore, extend your hands and gently accept it into embrace, let her Love, Kindness, Devotion, Generosity and Compassion touch even the most hidden part of your being.
Love it, because it doesn't (unlike Internal Child) require to much love, respect it because it makes it satisfied and be gently against it, because it is maybe the most worth part of your being - doesn't require anything, but gives you so much.
If you entirely reject it, even then it wouldn't be angry on you - simply it will lash out into a deep dream, waiting you to remember.
INNER CHILD
Imagine, under the influence of some time paradox, that you, suddenly, from your 40s went back to your own early childhood, in the time when you were a kid of some 6-7, and you met with him. Slowly and timidly you approach that tender boy or girl, who is with shyness, but also with trust which comes fourth from his/hers intuition, looking at you. You approach him, slowly bending towards him and in most spontaneous way you hug him, feeling that that is what you are supposed to do, while his childish arms are returning your embrace. While you still hold him in your arms, quietly, without the sound – not wanting to disturb him with that, the stream of tears are falling on your cheeks, like you are trying that way to take on yourself and spear him your own pain, which he will one day experience while growing up.
Between the two of you there is no need for words, because you understand each other and you communicate on the level which is much deeper and more significant then the one you could express in words. After the certain time, when tears dry out and they get replaced by the feeling of happiness and joy, you let him out of your embrace, you wish him happy and careless childhood and you return to your own world, to your grownup 40s.
The meeting that just happened was the meeting with your Inner Child.
Inner Child is a Permanent Energetic Consciousness which every person possesses. Its role is important, because it presents the connection between your Soul and Developmental Consciousness of Soul, or, yourself. The same as the Fairy, Inner Child too has a role to cure you and free you from your repressed and forgotten pain, built up with years of your life, so it could again and again remind you that life is a gift of joy and happiness, and together with all the bad things that happened to you along the way or that will happen in future. It is there to help you not to sink into hatred, revenge, evil, sadism.
But, considering its nature – like, after all, the nature of any other spiritual energy, it will never force you on anything, rather it will, with its own existence, remind you on itself and patiently be waiting for you to remember it, approach it and embrace it. You probably already realized that by that – through that embrace-connection of the two of you, Inner Child takes over your accumulated pain and that way cures you. After each of its curing you will feel happier, more alive, enthusiastic, joyful, and you will again even start smiling.
It is weird how one small child could cure one grown up and much bigger child, but fortunately that is the case.